I am Eva, a young German woman, who is always keeping a positive attitude and looking at the bright side of life.
But this has not always been the case. When I was 17 years old, my mum got sick at breast cancer. Within a second, my otherwise perfect and normal life was destroyed. My family and I were pulled off the ground. That could not be. I had heard of several breast cancer cases, but Mama? That had to be a mistake. Mama was never ill, did not smoke, walked with our dog at least 2 hours a day in the open air, and ate well and balanced.
It was simply not possible that my mum of all people should have a malignant tumor. Just two weeks later, reality was essential. Mama underwent surgery, then the first chemotherapies followed, hair fell off, Mama became weaker. The whole process was a steady up and down, but the worst part was just having to watch and not be able to help. My mum was and is the most important person in my life and to see how someone you love suffering so much is unbearable. But I did not want my mom to see how much her sickness broke me.
So I bit my teeth and showed no weakness, was always on Mama's side and tried to be strong. It worked surprisingly well, until my mother started to get better, finished the therapy and was finally free of cancer. All that swallowed up, all the pain I had not allowed, suddenly overwhelmed me. The better my mum felt, the worse did I. I was struggling with anxiety disorders, I was always feeling sick and I began to uncouple myself socially more and more. Going to school, grocery shopping, everything became a nightmare. I did not know what was going on with myself, the only thing I knew was that I did not want to be like this. This was not the life I wanted to live. Since I knew I would not be able to get out of it myself, I finally went to a therapist. And this was the best decision I could have made
. Finding out that I had developed a disorder called „Emetophobia“, we found a kind of therapy that would help me to become the major of my thoughts and my life again. But it was not only the therapy that helped, but sport contributed to a big big part as well.
I have always been a sportive person and had been active all my life before as well, but during that tough time, sport allowed me to dive into another world for a moment. For a short time, there was nothing than my body and my mind and I started realizing how strong both could be. I finally became aware of the immense impact sport can have not only on your physical, but much more on your mental health. This experience was the reason why I decided to become a Sports Professional and lead me to the study program I am doing right now – Sport, Health, and Management -, because I would like to share my experience and rise awareness of the power of sport.